Current mood:

tired

overwhelmed/x's and o's
man i've just felt really overwhelmed lately. been a rough week. drank way too much. and then working at 7:30 in the morning has been harder to get used to than i anticipated. of course my timing for starting this day job was just peachy since we had the parade and 3 shows in one week. i'm fuckin' burned out.

all in all i've been having fun. but fun is tiresome. saw christin play at mugshots wednesday night. then wendy came over and watched a movie. we watched the breakfast club and it so ruled. thursday i partied WAAAAY to hard at the what?bar on lower greenville. had a total blast with megan and (blonde) lauren...the guest DJing was fun but i drank too much. then had to get up for work early friday then host the trees show last night. before today i had only gotten about 7-8 hours sleep in the last 3 days. now, keep in mind i don't do drugs so it's it's not like i have something "keeping me up". nope, i'm whipped.

on top of that everything is weird right now. can't figure out what i wanna do in the chick dept. i miss my kids. i'm feeling burned out with the deep ellum scene. i guess i'm starting to feel my age. watching movies and the news has suddenly become more appealing. just going out to go rock out and get buzzed is just plain getting old. i know it's just a phase but this phase has been a tough one. i'll tell ya what, i LOVE being busy but this is ridiculous. i guess i'm just spoiled from not having a day-job for so long. i hope my reconditioning speeds along cuz this sucks!

anyway, so last night was a bummer. had a really good time with tamera - it was her birthday so we met for sushi at deep sushi! it was awesome! the show at trees was great but we got a li'l too buzzed. i think we started playing our 1st round of "games" last night. hahaha gotta love it. so...we partied at neverset's place till 5am then tamera left and i took a taxi home. yep, my car is STILL in deep ellum and then i realized i left my wallet in the taxi. sheesh. i'm such a dumbass!

so i'm just drained. talked to stephanie for a bit today - she was supportive. was nice to let out some of my frustrations... then i got online to answer some e-mail and saw that bekah was on AIM. she was visiting her grannie and we chatted for a bit. i love that. they make my day. just typing words to her and reading her responses cleared all the crap away. ya know what i love? i love being LOVED. and those kids love me so fuckin' much. damn, i'm lucky. now, if i could just get a fill nights sleep...

may fave part was the x's and o's...so i'm gonna post that part of out convo up here for shits and grins. maybe one day bekah'll read this and see just how much she turned around her daddy's shitty day. :)

DEADJEDIKNIGHT: i love you
bekahandtres: i love you too
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: good night princess, tell tres i love him and give him a kiss for me!
bekahandtres: ok
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: *kisses*
bekahandtres: xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxooxooxooxo
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: wow that's a lot of kisses!!
bekahandtres: yep
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: can't wait to see ya! bye bye!
bekahandtres: bye