Robert Miguel - DEADJEDIKNIGHT

OMG

2007-03-08T11:06:02Z

took me forever to figure out my damn password. but here i am.

*taps microphone*

is this thing on?

really quick post - i swear i'll do more lata...

2006-02-15T11:35:20Z

so much for the resolution...

okay let's see... just wanted to poke my head in for a quick rundown...

my li'l bro Gabriel left for U.S. Air-Force basic training a couple of weeks ago... the family has been sending him lotsa letters and stuff... he's lonely and tired... but he'll be back in early march... i wrote him a letter and it occurred to me that i had NEVER written him before... amazing.

Lauryn was sick most of last week... she had a sinus infection - poor thing. she got some drugs and is much better... i love you, baby! happy valentine's day!!

been spending more time with my younger bro Roy... he's been coming out to some of our gigs and it's been great getting to see him! plus, he brings all our ol' runnin' buddies out with him... so it's been cool seeing the ol' "irving alcoholics" -lol- oh, and it's been really great that all my "old" friends have gotten to know Lauryn much better now!

scream for me dallas is going to Tyler this saturday... big show in E Texas with Lame, Bless The Broken, and Hogtye (the new band from Shadow of Altered)!

Valentine's was a non-event. we both had to work and so we're doing the festivities Friday night... good thing cuz it's been hectic lately... lotsa shows and both of us working the day jobs!

we're planning on seeing nicki-dina-rayne next week at the addison improv!! gonna see some comedy and hang with my ol' baby-girl... i mentioned it to iron megan and she said she might make it... but with megan ya gotta call her a zillion times to remind so we'll see... and bitchboy called today... he's been takin' it easy cuz he just had some kinda back surgery... get well, bitch...boy!

okay that's all i got for now... i told ya it'd be quick but i shall return!!

This day in music history...

2006-01-04T11:40:47Z

January 4, 1954
Elvis Presley records demo

Elvis Presley, a struggling young musician who works in a machine shop, makes a recording for his mother's birthday on this day in 1954. He paid $4 at Sun Records to record two songs, "Casual Love Affair" and "I'll Never Stand in Your Way."

The office assistant was so impressed that she brought a copy of the recording to studio executive Sam Phillips, who asked Presley to audition for him. Presley started the audition with country-and-western standards, but when he felt Phillips' interest wane, he belted out a rhythm-and-blues song called "That's All Right." Impressed, Phillips recorded the song, and a week later it was No. 4 on the country-and-western charts in Memphis.

That summer, Phillips brought Presley together with guitarist Scotty Moore and bassist Bill Black, both country-and-western artists, and one of their songs was played on a Memphis radio station. The audience went wild, and Presley gave his first radio interview. He made his one and only appearance at the Grand Ole Opry on September 25 and soon began appearing regularly on the radio. He made his television debut on a Memphis show in March 1955 and that September scored his first No. 1 country record: a rendition of Junior Parker's "Mystery Train."

RCA purchased Presley's contract from Sun Records for an unprecedented $35,000, plus a $5,000 advance for Presley, which he used to buy a pink Cadillac for his mother. He made his first records in Nashville in 1956, including "I Got a Woman," "Heartbreak Hotel," and "I Was the One."

On January 28, 1956, television audiences met Presley on the Dorsey Brothers' Stage Show. He performed on several variety shows before he began filming his first movie, Love Me Tender, which took just three days to earn back the $1 million it cost to make. All his singles released that year went gold. Parents, priests, and other performers denounced the seductive hip gyrations that made teen girls swoon; on his last appearance on The Ed Sullivan Show, cameras showed him only from the waist up.

In 1967, Presley married Priscilla Beaulieu, who had moved into Presley's family home, Graceland, as a teenager six years earlier. The couple divorced in 1973. As his popularity continued to skyrocket, the King of Rock and Roll turned to drugs. He gave his final live performance on June 25, 1977. Six weeks later, on August 16, 1977, his girlfriend found him dead in a bathroom at Graceland. Congestive heart failure was initially cited as the cause of death, but drug abuse was suspected as a contributing factor. He was buried at Graceland with his parents, and his estate was passed on to his daughter, Lisa Marie Presley. Nine years after his death, he was one of the first 10 people inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame. He had earned 94 gold singles, three gold EPs, and more than 40 gold LPs.

this is ridiculous...

2005-08-13T05:23:09Z

OMG! it's been like FOUR MONTHS since i've even been on this site! wow, there is SO much to catch up on i wont even try! for the record.. i didn't have reliable internet for awhile...my keyboard was broke for a bit...and i spend most of my online time on myspace these days... hopefully i can get back into the routine of hitting this thing more frequently...

okay... let's start with the major news: lauryn and i are back together. all is AWESOME and we've been LIVIN' and LOVING together for most of the summer. just a li'l 2 bedroom apartment in irving (i'll NEVER leave this place) with DSL, basic cable, and a fat cat called "El Gato Vato". when we got back together it was obvious that the distance between us made our relationship more trying than it ever had to be. we moved in together almost immediately, went thru a couple of weeks of doubt and adjustments and i think i can speak for both of us when i say we're extremely happy and enthuasiastic about our current lives and our future together... as for lauryn she has really stepped up to the plate on so many levels - she has a job, helps with the kids, is my "right hand (wo)man" with show promotion, and is one helluva roommie! thank God something is going right for once...

Kids...just finished their 1st week of school... their mom and her BF moved to a new house and are expecting in mid-september...summer went by quickly cuz they started in a new school system... never really got to take them on a trip or anything (mostly cuz i was in a bit of a transitional period with lauryn) but we plan on doing something soon with them. kids seem extremely well-adjusted and are looking forward to the new addition on their mom's side... and they have welcome lauryn into our little family on this side of town. summer has been good to us - i think this was the summer that the family settled into what's gonna be the "permanent" lineup :) ummm, back to the school stuff... bekah is already the teacher's pet/suck-up and tres is already the li'l trouble-maker! good Lord i love them so much! they are SO different now - such distinct little personalities, both everything i feared and dreamed they would ever be :)

bob has had a rough time lately... both his parents suffered major health set-backs so he's been tending to them a lot. i think things are stableizing. did i spell that right?

jason and i had some really great times over the summer and over the last year. we put on some badass shows in the last 12 months and really wanted to make 'scream for me dallas' a big thing but we've decided to slow that down... sine we got trees back on sunday nights (i don't think i even mentioned that here) i have been focusing on that. it's easier to do a weekly show and keep the 9 to 5'er than to be doing random thurs, fri, and sat shows all the time. so... jason's embarking on his own "recoyle promotions" and i am sticking with scream for me dallas with the help of my future wife, lauryn...

mom n' dad are great. they have warmed up to lauryn and i think they realize that we are the "real deal" now. gabe has been working and playing hard all summer. he was holding down 2 jobs and buying lots of big-boy toys including a badass new car and a computer that looks like something outta fuckin' TRON :) and check this: GABE JUST SIGNED UP FOR THE AIR FORCE! he hits basic training in january from what i understand... rachel... not really sure, she's been in FW and i only see her rarely - i miss her and need to catch up with my sissy... roy is still roy... lauryn and i crashed at his place for almost a week while we were waiting for our apartment so he and lisa got to know my girl and we sat around and drank beer, smoked, watched TV, and talked about the old days... we still have more memories to laff about so we need to hook up again soon!

life seems balanced right now. i still go out and still put on some damn fun shows... but right now some of the best times are just chillin' with my lauryn in front of the TV or even at work with my new friends...

as for old friends... i still talk to scull on a weekly basis but haven't seen her in a while (damn me for missing our eagle reunion lunch at hooters!)... bitchboy is a dear voice from the past that still graces my telephone earpiece every few days - i love you man! i rarely see megan but i know we got love... haven't seen nickidinarayne for about a year and still haven't really bridged any gap with sera (although i really don't worry about that now).

okay, so that's what ya get. more next time with more color and flare and pizzaz (did i spell that right?)!

remember to join me (and lauryn) every sunday night at trees for the best in local rock! and check the site for other shows and such!

my GF is watching dharma and greg on TV and my kids are in bed...i think this might be one of the 1st times i've made an entry with my new li'l "family" around...

be back soon, bitches!

such a slacker

2005-04-09T16:46:53Z

man, i am getting so BAD at this! ya know...every day i think to myself i GOTTA go write in my damn journal... but sheesh! i'm just so damn busy right now - i barely have time to check e-mail much less write in this little corner of self-absorption!

anywho... i'm gonna try to stay better about it. let's see... i guess we can do the category entries and bring ya back up to speed...

FAMILY LIFE:

kids are with me this weekend. last night we did mcdonald's and movies and played some Star Wars Monopoly! it was awesome but Monopoly is sooooo damn time-consuming! i can't remember the last times i finished a game! and of course the leading player never wants to retire the game so ya end up saying "let's finish tomorrow" and then ya leave the board and game-pieces out on the table overnight - lol! yeah, good luck finishing that! today is movie day so that's good - maybe we'll get out to the park too... haven't felt really good about the way i've handled the kiddos lately mostly cuz of the new job. now i can't go eat lunch with them during the week and when i had them for spring break i worked so much that i could tell they were kinda disappointed. well, they're gonna hafta get used to me going to work again. and i'm definitely gonna hafta make sure our time is quality time and less leisurely. as for them, they are growing into such awesome little people. bekah is the SMARTEST girl ever and tres has to be the coolest, most charming little turd of all time (wonder who he gets THAT from?). bekah aced the reading portion of her TAKS test (36 outta 36) and is the "teachers pet". who woulda thought MY kid would get that title? actually, i'm pretty damn bright but i never had any discipline. it's like she got all my brains and the ex's focus. ...aaaand both of our good looks :)

WORK:

getting better all the time. lovin' the new job. nice people and they dig me. best part is my anonymity. no deep ellum scene. no "robert miguel". no "what happened to the eagle?". just me and some cool new co-workers. i've never been one that needs people's approval or some sort of validation but it really is nice that these people like me. i mean they like ME - not a former radio personality or a guy that supports their favorite band. no ass-sucking and politics. just plain 'ol me and my winning personality! for example: met a girl at work and had a couple drinks with her the other day. we had a good time and she said she thought i was funny etc. on the drive home i realized that she was the 1st girl i've gone out with since my ex-wife that had no idea that i was ever on the radio or some kind of local pseudo-celebrity. i guess what i'm saying is that it's nice to know i can still "charm" a pretty lady on my own. hehehehe... and oh yeah...pretty much done with job training and enjoying the work. hours are good and i'm FINALLY getting used to the new shift in lifestyle. i pretty much know my body's limitations and am able to work and do all the screamformdallas.com shows. and i did learn that lesson well (from my last entry): SLEEP IS YOUR FRIEND!

LOVE LIFE:

a joke. taking a step back from EVERYTHING in this department. lol. okay, not really, but i am sooo over worrying about it. too busy to sweat it so takin' it as it comes. cuttin' off a few relationships that have been bringin' me down and making room for new ones. this isn't really my style but my "style" hasn't seemed to be working as of late :) there's so much more i could write but it would just be drama that i wanna remove from mi vida loca.

SHOWS:

excited in this department!!! have ya heard? WE'RE BACK AT TREES! that's right - Trees pulled the plug on the Edge local show and asked us to host/book sunday nights. so... basically, we're bringin' back the old KEGL vibe! classic Eagle local show bands! cheap drinks and lotsa hot ladies! less of the indie/emo crap and more straight-up rock and metal. a showcase that TRULY represents deep ellum! now, i'm not really criticizing KDGE here (i know you guys are reading) i'm just saying that the Edge local show was too indie and artsy. fact is that those bands don't pull a crowd in deep ellum (especially on a sunday night) and they certainly DON'T pull a cool rockin' set of fans like the bands WE book brings. so needless to say the Trees staff is ecstatic and i am on top of the world! advent, frolic, and alligator dave will play our first show back this sunday! get all the details at the site! as for the edge local show: they will continue at another venue TBD. please support their efforts as well - it's all for the good of the scene!

oh yeah....and we are putting the final touches on another awesome show. 2nd/3rd week of may will mark the 1 year anniversary of the demise of the eagle. cindy and i are putting together a big "eagle reunion" show. dangerous darren, lynn hernandez, shannon, and all the eagle jocks that are still around will be there! we've asked some awesome local bands to play the gig and have even talked a very special band that called it quits in to reuniting for the event. details are coming soon!!!

pajama jam is april 23rd at ridglea theater. listen for the radio spot on the edge starting monday!

okay enough of the shameless plugs. we're pretty much up to speed. see ya at metalfest tonight. i am sooo getting laid (that was for you, murph) lol

Hail of a morning

2005-03-21T11:36:58Z

wow. just woke up to the crazy sound of some insane hail. i mean it was coming down HARD! it woke me up early so i got up (i was in bed by 10pm last night) then POOF, it stopped! so, here i am fully rested at 5:30 am...coffee brewing and feeling the best i've felt in 2 weeks. *sigh*

it's like the rain came in and washed all the bullshit away :)

sleep is good. rest is good. i can't believe it took me THIS long to figure this out...

overwhelmed/x's and o's

2005-03-20T02:23:15Z

man i've just felt really overwhelmed lately. been a rough week. drank way too much. and then working at 7:30 in the morning has been harder to get used to than i anticipated. of course my timing for starting this day job was just peachy since we had the parade and 3 shows in one week. i'm fuckin' burned out.

all in all i've been having fun. but fun is tiresome. saw christin play at mugshots wednesday night. then wendy came over and watched a movie. we watched the breakfast club and it so ruled. thursday i partied WAAAAY to hard at the what?bar on lower greenville. had a total blast with megan and (blonde) lauren...the guest DJing was fun but i drank too much. then had to get up for work early friday then host the trees show last night. before today i had only gotten about 7-8 hours sleep in the last 3 days. now, keep in mind i don't do drugs so it's it's not like i have something "keeping me up". nope, i'm whipped.

on top of that everything is weird right now. can't figure out what i wanna do in the chick dept. i miss my kids. i'm feeling burned out with the deep ellum scene. i guess i'm starting to feel my age. watching movies and the news has suddenly become more appealing. just going out to go rock out and get buzzed is just plain getting old. i know it's just a phase but this phase has been a tough one. i'll tell ya what, i LOVE being busy but this is ridiculous. i guess i'm just spoiled from not having a day-job for so long. i hope my reconditioning speeds along cuz this sucks!

anyway, so last night was a bummer. had a really good time with tamera - it was her birthday so we met for sushi at deep sushi! it was awesome! the show at trees was great but we got a li'l too buzzed. i think we started playing our 1st round of "games" last night. hahaha gotta love it. so...we partied at neverset's place till 5am then tamera left and i took a taxi home. yep, my car is STILL in deep ellum and then i realized i left my wallet in the taxi. sheesh. i'm such a dumbass!

so i'm just drained. talked to stephanie for a bit today - she was supportive. was nice to let out some of my frustrations... then i got online to answer some e-mail and saw that bekah was on AIM. she was visiting her grannie and we chatted for a bit. i love that. they make my day. just typing words to her and reading her responses cleared all the crap away. ya know what i love? i love being LOVED. and those kids love me so fuckin' much. damn, i'm lucky. now, if i could just get a fill nights sleep...

may fave part was the x's and o's...so i'm gonna post that part of out convo up here for shits and grins. maybe one day bekah'll read this and see just how much she turned around her daddy's shitty day. :)

DEADJEDIKNIGHT: i love you
bekahandtres: i love you too
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: good night princess, tell tres i love him and give him a kiss for me!
bekahandtres: ok
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: *kisses*
bekahandtres: xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxooxooxooxo
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: wow that's a lot of kisses!!
bekahandtres: yep
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: can't wait to see ya! bye bye!
bekahandtres: bye

calm like a bomb

2005-03-01T03:52:24Z

wow. hiroshima like a bitch. just got off the phone with the ex (wife, not lauryn). nice, casual talk about the kids at first...talked about bekah re-piercing her ears...talked about me and lauryn breaking up. nice chat. she was very supportive and the call was pleasant. then all of the sudden - BOOM!

she told me that she and the boyfriend are expecting! wow. didn't see that one coming. she said she's about 2 and a half months along and had their 1st sonogram last week. they told the kids last wednesday and showed them the sonogram shots. tres kept asking all weekend if he could call me and tell me the big news. the ex told him that she should tell me herself. well, i was planning on eating lunch with the kids tomorrow and the ex KNEW that tres would slip (the boy has such a big mouth)!

so...i'm sure you're eagerly awaiting my reaction. wow. the crazy thing is... i'm happy for them. i'll admit it was a bit of a shock. but she seemed very happy and i enjoyed hearing her talk about it. the kids are excited and that's so cool for them. i am really excited about tres having the opportunity to be a big brother to someone! hmmm... i guess i kind of hope they have a girl. bekah would love that and tres could benefit from it a lot. either way i'm sure it's gonna be exciting for them. as for me... i've often wondered what THIS DAY would feel like. another milestone. like the 1st time i saw her with "him". like the day the divorce was official. i remember when we split up years ago - sitting alone in a 3-bedroom house with nothing in it. wondering who she's with and why it wasn't me. thinking about her being intimate with another was hard way back then. then it was easier... then it was easy... then it wasn't even a thought. but the thought of her having another man's child has crossed my mind more than a few times. the thought of my kids having a "half-brother or sister" was an awkward one. the possibility of looking at another little face that's made up half the blood and genes that my kids are built with and another set of chromosomes that aren't mine. what will he/she look like? what will the kids feel when they see it for the 1st time? what will the ex feel? hell, this is certainly a strange turn of events.

after every milestone a whole new set of questions and possibilities opens.

fact is i'm truly happy for them. almost jealous of them to be quite honest. funny thing is that about a week ago lauryn and i were joking with the kids about this kind of stuff and kind of setting them up for the inevitable future. who knew the future was now? at any rate i think we're all ready. all of us. the ex. the new guy. the kids. and the ex-husband (that's me)!

wow. my entire world has changed in the last 7 days. and it feels pretty good. and i usually fear change. :)

Freaks & Greeks

2005-02-28T17:23:42Z

Morpheus

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pre-date evening

2005-02-25T07:05:21Z

well, a girlfriend of mine just came by for awhile. she brought a movie over and we chilled and had a cool time. watched the flick, talked about the "dating game" and stuff...drank some coffee and topped off the night with some aqua teen hunger force on [adult swim]. imagine that! a nice girl with a job and a car and a blockbuster video card!! she's even got a daughter and REAL responsibilities! with lauryn i had to drive to azle friggin' texas just to pick her up and spend a bunch of money on her! i swear it felt like i was back in high school when i was with lauryn. she had no job, no car, no money or responsibilities. it's like i had a teenage daughter or sumpthin'.

ya know, i can get used to this. having a good time with no effort is new territory for me. didn't drive anywhere! didn't hafta spend money or anything! just enjoyed a pretty lady's company hassle-free.

i think i have a new rule. i'm only gonna date chicks with kids. and chicks with a job and a ride. progress is good!

don't get me wrong, i miss my lauryn. i miss her smile and her smell. and i'm sure i'll miss her energy at the rock shows... but damn, i'm not gonna miss that long-ass drive and the added complexity that came along with all of our age/lifestyle differences.

it was a good day. if you were concerned, don't be. i told ya this was gonna be pretty easy :)

IDIOTS ON MYSPACE

2005-01-19T04:38:09Z

OKAY, SO JUST FOR THE RECORD THE TOP PART IS WHAT I POSTED IN RESPONSE TO THE IDIOTIC BULLETIN THAT IS GOING AROUND MYSPACE.COM... PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE GO TO CANADA, YOU MORONS!

----------------- Bulletin Message -----------------
From: THE Robert Miguel
Date: Jan 18, 2005 03:48 PM

Yeah that's smart. Fuck with the American economy cuz "your" choice for prez didn't win. You guys are right there with trial rioters and superbowl mobs.

classy. i hope you're proud.

**************************************************
If you hate Bush read this!
Body: Dont spend a fuckin cent this thursday

That's right, this Thursday, we need everybody to scrape by without spending one single penny all day. This is a huge movement around the US to strike a huge blow to corporate America on the day of Bush's inauguration.
Do whatever you might the day before to prepare, but please don't spend a dime on January 20th. Imagine if the worst day for the American economy in decades happened on the same day that Bush spends $40 million to throw himself an inauguration party. It could send a huge message and grab headlines around the entire world. Band together to send the strongest message possible, the message of the almighty dollar!

If ya need something, buy it in advance. NOT ONE DAMN DIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

repost!!!

2005 here we come! ...well, here we ARE, I guess...

2005-01-05T19:15:03Z

Okay been awhile... lots to catch up on!

1st of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Spent my NYE at the ridglea theater with a bunch of metalheads and the best hard rock/metal bands in D/FW! crowd was insane...show was stellar...had a great time at the after-party at Heidi's with J-rock, Iron Megan, Jason, Lauryn, and more! we watched JR pass out around 7am and then proceeded to fuck with him 'til about 10am. we put makeup on his face and decorated him with various knick-knacks lying around Heidi's place: cheerleader stuff, mardi gras beads, masks, toys, liquor bottles, etc. hehehehe... the pics will be up soon at the website! he looked like a damn drag-queen!

so yeah it was a blast! the countdown to midnight was done on stage during The Guns Of August's set. we brought 8 bottles of champagne up and trashed the place! Bitchboy drenched me in bubbly and Jason drenched the crowd! we had members from all the bands up plus Zack the new bassist for E80, Jeremy from Altered, and more that i can't recall cuz, well, I was pretty damn drunk :) and of course i kissed my Lauryn shortly after midnight - my fist midnight/new years kiss since i was married! pretty exciting to say the least!

So thanks to all the bands: Element Eighty, Guns Of August, Dedlock, LaME., Neverset, MojQue, Lockjaw, Sidekick Mafia, Egress, Burning Mona, The Bomb Almighty, Panic Value, and Brian Weems of Gift! YOU ALL ROCKED! What an honor to have such talent on such a huge night!

Umm, also... the 2004 Local Awards was huge! Great turnout and very positive feedback from all the bands involved! The awards ceremony was interesting for me... kind of the same as i've done in the past but different... new venue (galaxy club) and of course without the help of KEGL... so yeah, ScreamForMeDallas.com stepped up to the plate and we did it on our own! Actually, it was an AMAZING team effort... bart rose at first street audio REALLY helped a lot (bands GO RECORD there!)... dina really banged out some great imaging for the event in a time-crunch (some things never change)! bitchboy and vince showcased their engineering expertise - iron megan helped with the ceremony and Jason (my partner in crime) really came thru on so many things to may name! also, we did the internet show for renegaderadio.net (check them for the rebroadcast) and cindy even made a cameo appearance! the bands (a dozen furies, jacknife, seven story drop, and JFJ band) kicked ass! I'll admit i was nervous at first, but once we started rolling, it all kinda came back! my biggest fear was whether or not anybody would still CARE about these awards. y'know, without the Eagle's name attached. to my surprise, i found that many really do...in some ways more than ever. JR told me something that meant a lot to me. he said when i'm back on the radio doing another "local show" and we do the awards again... the people that were around for the 2004 awards will remember that we kept it going. without the radio. we still did it. i know what he was saying. but, honestly i'm not worried about getting on the radio any time soon. don't get me wrong... if the right offer comes along and the timing is right, sure - i'll take a gig. but, i'm not sweating it.

let's see... what else? Christmas was good but relatively uneventful. less money to buy the kids stuff, but i'm gonna give them some late gifts this weekend! Lauryn and i are passed the "honeymoon"... ya know, ya have around 3 months where you're just getting to know someone and the sex is awesome and the relationship is blooming... well, no complaints on the sex, but yeah - we fight a li'l more than we used to. it happens. i'm trying to make sure this thing stays as healthy as possible and i think she's trying hard, too. over all, we're great and i'm really very happy right now. for the 1st time in my life i feel like i've been through enough shit to have learned some good lessons. and i feel mature enough to actually stay on the right course. *sigh* if i only knew then, what i know now! i guess getting old is kinda cool.

hey! i haven't done one of those "best of 2004" posts yet... ya know the ones where you reflect back and all that shit... that'll be next time. come back. my intellect will dizzy you.

GREATEST CHRISTMAS SONG EVER

2004-12-23T08:56:05Z

Go to my website and hear the GREATEST CHRISTMAS SONG EVER RECORDED! Turn your speakers up!!

ScreamForMeDallas.com/RobertMiguel.com - my gift to YOU!!

happy holidays!!

- Robert Miguel
(closet Stryper fan)

our first online convo

2004-12-22T23:15:34Z

miss the kids. what a pleasant surprise to get an IM from them... had to post it here as a keepsake. hehehe...

bekahandtres: hi
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: hey
bekahandtres: i love you
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: where are you?
bekahandtres: grannys house
bekahandtres: is it snowing in Irving?
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: yes it is!
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: i love you guys sooooooooooooooooooooo much!!
bekahandtres: i love you sooooooooooooooo much too
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: hahhaah

DEADJEDIKNIGHT: how's your bubba?
bekahandtres: good
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: i miss you guys
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: can't wait to see you saturday!
bekahandtres: i cant wait to see you too
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: are you being good for mom and elias?
bekahandtres: yes i am being very good
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: good
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: or santa wont bring you presents :-)
bekahandtres: your the best dad ever
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: no
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: you are the best daughter ever!!!
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: and tres man is the best son ever!!
bekahandtres: tres wants to talk to you now
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: okay, cool
bekahandtres: he is playing he will talk in a little bit
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: okay
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: figures :-)
bekahandtres: yeah
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: hehehe
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: i love talking to you anyway
bekahandtres: me too
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: so what are ya gonna do tonight?
bekahandtres: maybe wrap presents
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: cool
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: sounds fun
bekahandtres: Tres said I love you
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: tell him i love him too
bekahandtres: now he wants to talk to you
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: okay, finally...
bekahandtres: I love you way more
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: no i love YOU way more!!
bekahandtres: I love you more then the whole EARTH
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: i love you INFINITY
bekahandtres: I love you INFINITY FOUR
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: i love you INFINTY FIVE HUNDRED
bekahandtres: I LOVE YOU INFINTY THOSAND HUNDRED
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: oh no!!
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: i think you win
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: man, thats a BIG number!!
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: :-)
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: you are the bestest in the world, little man!
bekahandtres: it is just easy
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: haha
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: are you being good too?
bekahandtres: yes
bekahandtres: >:o
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: wow that is a funny face!!
bekahandtres: :-D
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: hehehe
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: i like all the teeth in that one
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: hey, is your tooth still getting looser?
bekahandtres: yes
bekahandtres: :-*
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: better be careful cuz if it falls out and you swallow it, a bunch of toothies will grow in your stomach
bekahandtres: are you being good
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: hahaha
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: yes i am
bekahandtres: i am being better then you you now that
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: hahaha
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: yeah prolly
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: cuz you're the BESTEST!!
bekahandtres: :-*
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: is that a kissy face?
bekahandtres: your the bestes dad in the universe
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: sweet. i hope so
bekahandtres: 8-)yes
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: and its easy when you have the bestest kiddos :-)
bekahandtres: it is bekah
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: i love you baby
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: did ya show your mom the new pictures on your website?
bekahandtres: not yet
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: okay
bekahandtres: i love you
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: i love you...well, i better go. gotta get some dinner. wash your hand before dinner and be good :-)
bekahandtres: ok
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: i love you guys. you're the BEST Christmas presents I ever got!!
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: see ya saturday
bekahandtres: ok i miss you
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: love ya - bye bye
bekahandtres: bye
bekahandtres: :'(
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: awww whats that for?
bekahandtres: i miss you bad
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: i will see you really soon. and you're gonna have so much fun for Christmas Eve
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: and then we'll have fun Christmas day
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: so enjoy it and dont be sad, baby
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: i miss you too but i'm happy cuz i know i'll see you soon
bekahandtres: ok now i am happy now and i cannot wait to see you
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: hahaha
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: good! i love you guys
DEADJEDIKNIGHT: see ya soon! *kisses*

Let it snow, Let it snow, Let it snow!

2004-12-22T17:37:09Z

This will always be, in my opinion, the cheesiest of the holiday songs. But seeing as it actually IS snowing today, i thought i'd share the cheese with you. My favorite version of this song was recorded by Country icon and Kiss fan, Garth Brooks. Go figure. Sing it with twang, my friends!!

</i>LET IT SNOW

"The weather outside is frightful
But the fire is so delightful
And since we've no place to go
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

Well, it doesn't show signs of stopping
But we've got some corn for popping
And the lights are turned way down low
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

When we finally kiss goodnight
How I hate going out in the storm
But as long as you hold me tight
Oh, all the way home I'll be warm

The fire is slowly dying
But my dear we're still goodbye-ing
And as long as you love me so
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow"</i>

okay, so it's not so "frightful" out there, i'm outta popcorn and don't even have a fireplace for a "delightful" fire, but whatever. it's cool to see snow a couple days before Christmas! I wish the kids were with me today :)

Happy Holidays!

miss ya already...

2004-12-22T00:36:59Z

kids just left with their mom. was cool of her to come pick them up (she rarely does that). saves me some gas dinero and a trip to BFE in traffic. rock on.

had a pretty nice extended weekend with them. and i'll get 'em back Christmas day and keep em 'til NYE. funny... they are getting a li'l spoiled, methinks. i've been lettin' 'em stay up too late and eat too much junk food etc. etc. but it's so hard to be strict when you're "part-time dad". anyway, since new years resolution time is coming up i've decided that i wanna try to be a li'l less of a pushover. still cool dad, but a li'l more structured and strict. better on bedtimes, and better on junk food, and more attentive in general. we spend good times together, but it's gotten where i've been distracted again (always busy). more quality time for the kiddos. i've never been good a resolutions so i've never really tried to follow through with them, but i think '05 is gonna be the year i stick by few of them.

anyway, not to get ahead of myself... still got Christmas to get outta the way!

Christmas rules. the weather was awesome today. December air was crisp and clean - chilly but not too cold. supposed to "freeze" tonight (or so "they" say). bring in the pets and plants.

been listening to my Christmas CDs a lot. Johnny Mathis is the shit! I was joking with my mom about how cool the Johnny Mathis CD sounds without the vinyl scratches. Grew up on that album - it's not the holidays until mah boy, Johnny, sings "Sleigh Bells" in that distinct vibrato!

Looking forward to the Christmas TREES concert at Trees! It's Thursday with EGRESS, SMOOTH CHOPPY, ROCKETT QUEEN, PANIC VALUE, and 12 YEARS WASTED! It wil rock and I wil force the attendees to listen to Johnny Mathis' "Merry Christmas" between bands! Oh, also - we're giving away New Years EVIL tickets so come out for da fun!

2004/2005 Local Awards voting polls are closed. Gonna be a helluva shindig with performances by A Dozen Furies, Jacknife, Seven Story Drop, and JFJ Band... It's sooooo crazy cuz I KNOW WHO THE WINNERS ARE!! *****boy is helping with the engineering and Nicki is doing the imaging... and I talked to Iron Megan who offered to help out with the show... what a great feeling - the old "Local Show" staff back in the saddle!

well, I'm off to get my Lauryn... haven't seen her for a week! Think we're gonna do dollar beer night at Razoo's with Steph and J-Rock. Hope your having a great Christmas week!

saturday night

2004-12-19T07:55:19Z

kids are crashed (finally). been up all night answering e-mails and trying to get the kids in bed. so far so good on the weekend. took the kids to see the new jim carey movie, "leminy snicket's a series of unfortunate events". very melancholy movie. but entertaining. kind of a dark comedy, but for kids. weird, but refreshing.

miss my lauryn, haven't seen her this week... nice to just stay home for once on a saturday night. just talked to jason and he said the a dozen furies show at ridglea was bad-ass. planned to go, but after the week i've had and as much as i've missed the kids, i really need this "chill" night. oh yeah... just talked to brandan of advent and confirmed a show with the boys on saturday 1/15/05 at ridglea. be there.

anyway, just thought i'd check in... ya know, try to get back to an almost daily post (yeahhright)!

g'night

hmmmm...

2004-12-17T21:23:42Z

where to start?

just picked up the kids for the weekend. I got to join them for their school Christmas parties. The ex was acting room mother for Bekah and I volunteered to help, but I really kinda just hung out and entertained some of the kids. It was kinda cool watching the EX do her thing again. The fact that we were both there together was kinda neat, I guess - kinda made me wonder what life would be like if we were still together. I used to love "watching her go". She's very crafty and enthusiastic - great person to help organize these kinds of things. At any rate, I know the kids LOVE IT when they get both of us together at the same time. Tres' party was especially entertaining. After refreshments, his teacher dimmed the lights and cranked up some Christmas/holiday music. The kids started dancing around the Christmas tree. Well, not really dancing... more like jumping frantically. Burning off the energy from all the candy canes and cupcakes... While they "danced" I kinda watched on, seeing if Tres was gonna "dance" with any girls or whatever. Well, he just kinda jumped up and down with a huge smile on his face... then the teacher said "Okay, everyone grab a partner!" I'm thinkin' "Uh oh, where's this going?"... then all the kids found partners... it was so cute. all the girls partnered up with other girls and all the boys with other boys. hehehehe... should i be worried that my son dances with boys? ahh, innocence is bliss. or is it ignorance? whatever. I'm just glad his little hormones haven't kicked in yet :)

yesterday was Mayhem's funeral. i think his family wanted to keep it pretty personal so i won't go into too much detail here. but, there was a super turnout - lots of folks from Dallas made the 6 plus hour drive to Newport, Arkansas. the service was nice and the fellowship was good for me. i've always hated funerals, but now more than ever i realize why they are necessary. it's like a cleansing. a place where we all gather and cry our ass of if we wanna. i cried some tears. and i feel better. i told myself that i wouldn't look at his body. i remembered looking at kelly's and dave's bodies and it bothered me. it still kinda does, i guess. it's bothered me that up until dave's funeral the last memory i had of him was on stage kicking ass and hangin' backstage. before kelly passed, my last memory of her was watching her ham it up on the radio with me. that's how i wanted my "last memories" to be. before mayhem passed my last memory was talking to him in Deep Ellum. now, it's of him in a pine box. i told myself that i never wanted to see one my friends in a lifeless state again. i don't think i want my friends' and families' final memory of me to be in a casket. i wanna be remembered as i was - in my element or whatever. but at funerals, they often "force" you to view the body on the way out. yesterday, i sucked it in and looked at mayhem. he looked peaceful. and i touched his hand. it was cold - nothing like the warmth it had before. but surprisingly, the contrast made me remember how he was in life. full of WARMTH. full of love, energy, passion...all those things that ARE life. even though i viewed his body reluctantly, i DO feel better now. that WASN'T mayhem lying there. mayhem's in a better place. and when i speak to those that i love i need to remind myself that i'm not REALLY speaking to them. we're more than flesh & blood. YOU are a spirit. I am a spirit. and i firmly believe that our bodies are a temporary form. i don't mean to get to spiritual on ya here, but that's what i believe. and as often as it's been said and as trite as it may sound - our loved ones live on. in spirit. in OUR thoughts and memories.

still not sure how i wanna be buried - open or closed casket - but overall, i think i'm okay with death. or at least i'm gettin' there :)

what a week

2004-12-15T18:26:36Z

yeah, it's been a tough one...

last night was the dimebag memorial at the arlington convention center. i woulda loved to have gone, but i couldn't make it. my daughter's Christmas program was last night and i told her i'd be there and couldn't back out.

actually, there was some drama surrounding the whole issue... i called the ex and told her i might not be able to make the program cuz i was considering going to the memorial. i asked her to let me talk to Bekah. i guess i wanted to get a "feel" for how she would take it. well, the ex got kinda pissy and hung up (some thing's never change). so after a bit more research i realized that i probably had time to do BOTH since the program was at 6:30 and the memorial was at 9:00. i hauled ass to get to Bekah's school and got there right at 6:30. the ex and her BF had obviously gotten there early cuz they had front row seats. Tres was sitting near them by his friends a few seats down. So when Tres saw me he jumped up! then i sat down in his seat and he in my lap. well, a few minutes later the curtains opened and Bekah's 3rd grade class started their program. you should seen her face light up when she saw me there in the front row. i know she wasn't expecting me, but i made it dammitt! it was like one of those bad family/comedy movies where the distracted, under-attentive dad screws up all the time but then makes good at the end. i was so proud of my baby! she's quite the singer and dancer! i owe the ex some praise for giving me hell - it got me motivated to really think things through and do the "right thing".

so, after the program i asked if i could take the kids for ice cream or sumpthin' since i was already in their neck of the woods. the ex's bf was resistant at first, and we actually had words. i guess things have been "building up" between me and him and it came to a head last night. after we both got into "macho mode" in the middle of the school auditorium, we cooled down and worked it out. then when i brought the kids back to their place, we kinda hashed things out and made some progress, i think.

it's hard watching a stranger develop so much influence in your kid's lives. i didn't ask for his involvement, and i'm sure he's not too fond of me coming along as a bonus in his girlfriend's package (hehe, i said "package"). if she and i were still married i woulda said "hey kids, let's get some ice cream to celebrate Bekah's performance!" and that woulda been that. i mean, i suppose the ex could say something like "it's getting late..." but i'm pretty sure it woulda been a non-issue. no, instead i got this guy throwing in his 2 cents. anyway, he's a pretty cool guy, but it just gets frustrating, ya know? we had a talk and i reminded my ex that the day may be coming where she see's Lauryn's influence in her kids. I reminded her that I have been very careful about "getting involved" with anyone too soon and that she has had the leisure of not having to worry about that kind of stuff...

so... after the program i was on such a "high" i didn't wanna come down by going to the dime memorial. it was late and i knew the crowd would be huge and to be honest, i'm just so done with it. it's like me and all my friends have developed really thick skin going through all these deaths. honestly, i woulda loved to have been there, but i'm glad i didn't go. seeing the kids and the program was the right thing... they are STILL here with me and now more than ever, i realize i need to focus on them while i'm still here to do it.

so today, some of us are going to Arkansas to pay our respects at Mayhem's funeral. from what i understand, a lot the old Eagle crue will be making the trip - plus the guys in Drowning Pool and countless deep ellum friends. We're leaving this evening and staying the night in Little Rock, which s about an hour from where Mayhem's dad lives. Thursday morning we'll drive in for the service and leave afterwords. I'll be going with Bob Jovi and Iron Megan and Lauryn might be going.

Gotta make it back late Thursday night/Friday morning cuz the kids' Christmas parties are at school Friday from 11-noon. Lauryn and i are gonnna help with the festivities.

It's so hard going through this "loss of a loved one" stuff during the holidays... vacillating between depression and holiday "glee". once again, this duality bites.

anyway, i DO have more positive stuff to post about - like my crazy weekend in Parker county and i still wanna drop some details on Lauryn getting trashed at my b-day show :)

come back and read... my next offering will be sheer comedic genius. very entertaining. like a bad pauly shore flick... but funnier. and with better acting. and a waaaaay better looking lead.

Goodbye

2004-12-09T22:03:08Z

Okay so it's all over the news. Last night two of our friends were shot and killed at a concert in Ohio. I'd rather not rehash the details here so I won't. I have a feeling this is gonna come off angry and for that I apologize...

Last night as Lauryn and I were leaving Jason's we heard the news on the radio. Of course we were in disbelief...wondering if it was truth or a silly radio stunt/joke. Since the news was delivered by Josh from the Edge I knew it wasn't a joke. The metal crowd around here already thinks he's a joke and a stunt like that wouldn't do any good for his already less-than-credible metal image. No, I knew it was for real and something told me to expect the worst.

I dropped Lauryn off and proceeded home. I admit, I kinda scoffed on the inside at the 30+ minutes of Pantera and DamagePlan I heard the Edge play. Too little too late, boys. On the flip-side, I was kinda relieved that this wasn't the "day of the Eagle" and that I wasn't the man behind the mic having to deliver the heavy news to the masses. The worst day of my "professional" life was the day that Dave Williams of Drowning Pool passed. I wouldn't wish a job like that on my worst enemy. Not even "Adventure Club" Josh. Kind of ironic that I heard the news of Dimebag's death via the lips of the most UN-metal, UN-pantera, UN-eagle radio jock in Dallas. I told ya this would be angry. And no offense to Josh. Well, maybe a li'l...

I knew before I got home that my phone would be blown up. And boy was it. Lots of calls and already a shit-load of e-mails. Details were still very sketchy at the time so there were lots of questions and few answers. In my heart I prayed for Rita and Vinnie whom I'd heard were okay. And I prayed extra hard for "Mighty" Mayhem.

Reports were that a bouncer or security guard was killed shortly after Dime was shot. I feared it was Mayhem. If you knew him you'd hafta know he was there in a split-second doing his job. Always at their side. No fear. Only love and the willingness to do a job that only a man like him could handle. He was the strong-not-so-silent type. The epitome of the "gentle giant". And so smart. Brawn and brains. He used to chase my kids around the Eagle studios. Tossing 'em around like rag-dolls and they LOVED it. I used to watch him throw Tres in the air and I'd be green with envy. I wished I were that strong. I wished I could put that much air between my boy and the ground. "Mighty" Mayhem...last time I saw him was in Deep Ellum. He kept reminding me that he still had my autographed Poison guitar. Every time we'd run into each other he'd say "We gotta get together and get you that guitar...but I'll only be in town til (fill in the date) then I'm going back on the road..." "On the road" he said. Mayhem served in the Promotions Department at KEGL for several years. He was so creative. Many times when I wasn't up to being "Mr. Personality" at events Mayhem would step up to the plate and entertain through fun and games, trivia, even the occasional song and dance. I'm not kidding. Mayhem was a phenomenal performer that used to work at the Renaissance Fair and what-not. He was a human wall at events... I remember one time at a Motley Crue autograph signing I (carelessly) went into a crowd of hundreds of Crue fans with a stack of free Motley Crue tickets and a wireless mic. I told the crowd that they could "get 'em while they last" and the crowd erupted! I was swarmed and a bit scared. But Mayhem was there for crowd control. Hell, we WAS the crowd. Always there. Always there.

And there's Dime. Shit. What can ya say about him? Words can't express. Friend. Rock Star. Hero. His musical legacy speaks for itself. But how a man of such celebrity could stay so grounded is beyond me. Not afraid to go out in public. Always willing to meet a fan. Brash and sometimes vulgar on the outside but sweet, tender, and REAL on the inside. You could always see it in his eyes. That gleam of passion. Passion for life, family, and music. The last time we spoke was at the DamagePlan show in Fort Worth last month. We were hangin' at the after-show party doing some drinkin'... He urged me to throw back a shot of Crown with him, I graciously declined. Yes, I learned THAT lesson a loooooong time ago. Too many nights drinking with the Pantera guys that ended at 7am with my head out the window and puke on Sera's truck... At the show, we talked of the "old days" when the Eagle was around and we even discussed doing a show together - something that Cindy and I would host. He was excited at the idea. Spirits were high but still he lamented a bit on the current state of rock radio in D/FW. Dime ALWAYS said what was on his mind. He bitched about the Edge and the loss of the Eagle. He and Rita suggested we orchestrate some kind of "bring back the Eagle" rally. I've heard THAT a million times...Funny thing is that he was serious. Just like a 17 year old kid, he was pissed when the station was yanked. He said he was the Eagle's "biggest fan".

Rock Star. And music fan. Family.

My fondest memory - okay, not-so-fond, but most vivid memory of Dime was the time they came to the Eagle studio to promote the New Found Power CD release. Cindy and I did the interview and the band was so excited about the new CD, the band lineup, and the new beginning. The word for the day must've been "cumbucket" cuz it was every other word out of Dime's mouth. The funny this is that he kept calling ME that. It was awkward as hell for me and Scull - we didn't know if we could get in trouble for him saying that or not so we just grinned and bared it. Who were WE to tell Dime what he could say and couldn't say? :) I swear, he was like a kid that just discovered the F-word... just kept using it over and over and over... hehehe... "cumbucket"... such a foul word, but he said it with such enthusiasm!

Yeah, good times with Dime and Mayhem...memories that will last a liftime... and Dime's music will last beyond that.

The Edge is planing some sort of tribute tonight at the Clubhouse. They invited Scull and I to be a part of the live broadcast...to kind of reflect on our relationship with the guys. I won't be attending. I have no interest in exploiting the tragedy for the benefit of that station or company. Especially after hearing Dime's disdain with KDGE a few weeks ago. No, they'll hafta have Chris Ryan and Josh tell their "Pantera" stories... I'm sure they have plenty. Can you believe the audacity? Cindy and I are all but BANNED from the Clear Channel building. Their employees aren't allowed to wear KEGL t-shirts in the office... But, now they want US to join their whoring of this tragedy? No thanks.

Right now I'm angry. Angry that some psycho asswhipe would kill my friends onstage at a concert. Angry that people that didn't care about this band or their music a week ago are trying generate ratings and lick the wounds of D/FW's metal crowd. Angry that while I wanna pay tribute to these great men, my conscience says "no".

I hope this tribute will suffice.

My heart goes out to the family, friends, and fans of Pantera and DamagePlan. The music world lost a great talent last night. Modern metal lost a founding father. Not only that, I lost a friend and co-worker. For every "Dimebag" there's a "Mayhem" behind him. Darrell and Mayhem rest in peace, my brothers. See ya on the other side...

happy birthday to me!

2004-12-07T06:06:13Z

okay so wow, it's been over a month since i've been here... not that there's nuthin' to talk about, cuz there's plenty...

let's see, well today is my birfday... pretty uneventful as in recent years i celebrate my birthday at a show or sumpthin'... no today was pretty normal but i did get to sleep in late and even did another Internet show on renegade radio. much fun.

we celebrated by b-day last saturday at indigo with a big show. fame 15 started off the night with their sleaze-rock. cameron from lame and i joined them (lyric sheets in hand) for a cover of george michael's "father figure". ouch. hehehehe good times. lame was next and they brought the metal as usual. love those guys and they are hands down the most original sounding band in d/fw. honchie was next and (as i expected) had the stand-out set. they did all their wacky classics including "monkey midget", "mofo" and "bitch stole my liquor". sheer genius. that's what honchie is. frolic came next and was spectacular as expected. they did their cover of wham's "careless whisper" to show that SOMEONE could do george michael justice. awesome set. what an honor to have such a talented band perform on your special day. then we wrapped up the night with poison cherry the 80's hair band tribute. the rocked tunes from def leppard, ratt, bon jovi, poison, and more in their spandex and wigs. not the tightest most polished band, but damn good to have at a party. well i take it back. their pants were tight and their nails were polished :)

but it wasn't all about the live music... lots of friends showed up. bitchboy kept the b-day tradition rolling by bring me a case of boone's farm wine (assorted flavors i might add). the folks at indigo tried to confiscate the contraband immediately. no luck though. we stashed the liquid gold.... bob jovi was there. the eagle crue was in effect: iron megan, jeff leppard, rachel and carla, pete and chris, the KISS FM traitors even tore away from Lazerz long enough to "rock out" old-school with us (just kidding guys)! my friend christina and her husband made it out from fort worth which was a surprise. my bands buds in neverdead, daimonion, neverset, smooth choppy, earful, and tyr all showed up...so many more that i can't name now cuz it's all quite fuzzy.

oh and the ladies looked good. girlies are nice. very nice. and speaking of girlies...my girlie, lauryn had a bit too much to drink. i have a great story i could tell but it's so good i hafta save it for another entry.

so the party was awesome. sunday i spent the day with the kids (what li'l time i had left before they went to their mom's). bekah made me the most awesome hand-made birthday card. definitely the highlight of the b-day weekend. then my mom made me a cake (she always does that) and the family sang happy b-day around the table. hehehehehe... some things never change.

let's see what else?...

got some great shows coming up...another birthday bash (the fort worth edition) is this friday at the aardvark in fort worth with dedlock and neverset (this show will be amazing)... big show at trees on 12/23 with egress, smooth choppy, panic value, rockett queen, and 12 years wasted...

quick thought: you should always have cans of chopped or sliced mushrooms around. ya ever get spaghetti sauce that supposedly has mushrooms in it? or maybe chunky's beef and mushroom soup. ya gotta have extra mushrooms cuz they NEVER put enough in. ADD THE MUSHROOMS AND IT WILL SOOOOO RULE! that is unless you don't like mushrooms - then there's too many, i suppose. anyway, i like em...

hmmmm... lauryn and i are good. looks like i finally made a good decision with this one *crosses fingers* she's definitely turnin' out to be a keeper. the other night we had a great talk about stuff. what it's like to me. what it's like to be with each other. i think as long as she continues to deal with my eccentricities we'll be cool. wow. that's a weird word: "eccentricities". did i spell that right? guess i'll find out in "spell check" mode. hehehe

peace.

man o man

2004-11-03T08:29:24Z

been awhile and there's too much to catch up on so let's do the cliff's notes edition...

skreamphest was a total success! all the bands kicked ass - crowd was huge and the ladies looked good...aside from the Just For Play girls getting a li'l too lit up before the fashion show, the night was perfect! i really enjoyed the fact that scull co-hosted the show with me. it was really cool to bounce off each other on the mics in front of the crowd...felt like the old days when we would broadcast at freakers ball or bfd. neat feeling of old-school familiarity and the newness off uncharted territory. i'm proud as shit of the event! thanks to jason, the bands, and everyone that attended! can't wait til new years eve!

bummed cuz i didn't get to trick or treat with the kids - the kids and the ex were "mystery inc." this year...the ex was daphne, tres was scooby, bekah was velma (she's too pretty for that but whatever), and the "boyfriend" was fred. i'll admit i got kinda depressed about it but (all together now) i always get that way around the holidays! i did get to see the kids at school last friday for lunch, though. lauryn and i stopped by and also dropped off cookies and cupcakes for the kids' classes. brown-nosing is FUN! then i dropped them some halloween cards in the mail with some stickers and gift cards. i might not of been WITH them for halloween, but i think they know i was thinking of them :)

been spending some good quality time with THE lauryn. she and i had an especially nice time monday night with J-rock and stephanie. we decided to get some dinner at razzoo's and called them cuz they're in the area. so the four of us just chilled and talked and drank some draft beers... sounds simple, but it's someting we just don't do often at all. we're all usually at shows with loud music etc. so it was cool to sit and talk... we've decided we need to do more stuff like that. oh yeah - mad love to razzoo's on the fried alligator - love that shit! i also remembered why i don't drink beer. it makes me kinda slow and groggy. after 4 beers, i actually had a hard time getting words out...crown and coke next time, baby! dance with the one who brung ya :)

saw my old best-friend-with-benefits (for lack of a better term), sera at the skreamphest show saturday. it was weird cuz she has a boyfriend now, i guess. she looked great and seemed happy. it was the first time i'd ever seen her with another guy so it was strange, but i'm really just so glad she came and i assume she's happy so i'm happy for her...hope to see her more. still miss her a lot... oh yeah, and nicki if you're reading this i'm still mad at you for not showing up! i mean COME ON! even SERA showed up!!

so much for the short version...i could go on but it's late and i gotta call lauryn and then get back to watching bush kick kerry's ass! hell yeah! i'm a mexican, rock n' rollin' conservative, bitch! BUSH RULES!!

umm...yeah

2004-10-23T16:01:48Z

g'morin' mate! got a nice full night of sleep last night- went to bed around 12:30 (early for me) and got to sleep til about 9:00. a full 8 hours of sleep is awesome!

really need the rest, i've been pretty drained lately. both jason and i are at out wits end with the big skreamphest show coming up and all the other shows (mostly last-minute) and promotion involved. ahhh, stress...it can be a hassle, but i've learned it keeps ya going - keeps ya motivated. gotta learn to embrace it without letting it consume you.

speaking of consumption i gotta back to watching what i eat a li'l better. between having a girlfriend that likes whataburger and eating mom's home cookin' i've lost some momentum on the weight-watching thing. had a nice BIG sushi lunch yesterday with the eagle crue: scull, darren, bitchboy, and nicki rayne all showed up. and carla, rachel, tony coke, and amy jain were there too! sushi rules and it's relatively guilt-free :)

tuned in to the edge last night and heard our skreamphest radio ad...definitley a weird feeling. first of all, i haven't heard my voice on the radio since back in may...plus, the ad was promoting "robertmiguel.com" which is kinda new and exciting for me. ...and bekah heard the spot, and said "dad, i miss you on the radio - you can make something sound really exciting and make people wanna go to it". i guess that's what i did, huh? hehehe... maybe again someday :)

yeah, so i picked up the kids yesterday evening. traffic was a bitch. we WERE planing to get out to screams haunted theme park but between the traffic, rain, and the long drive to waxahachie i decided against it - we instead went and saw a movie and the kids crashed pretty early. okay by me. today we're gonna find something fun to do like maybe a kid haunted house or sumpthin'. tonight i'm hosting the alter bridge after-party at tomcats with dedlock, lifesize, fame 15, and gage. should be fun and i get to hang with lauryn who i haven't seen all friggin' week. miss ya babe :)

umm, other than that - life is good. i had what i consider a good conversation with an estranged friend. there's still some tension, but i got some closure if nothing else. that's all i can really say even though there's sooo much more i could/wanna write about it. tomorrow is freakers ball hosted by 102.1 the edge. gonna be a strange vibe, but i'm going. gotta support the DP's (both bands) and BFS! bekah wants to see drowning pool and bowling for soup, too - i might take her with me. we'll see.

oh yeah, and monday is the avril concert. i have tickets but i dunno if the ex is gonna let me take bekah. i really don't know what to do if she doesn't. do i tell bekah that her mom won't let her go or do i just let the show slip by and not bring it up. i'm sure she'll have friends at school talking about it. i just don't wanna get her excited about it and have the ex come in with a veto at the last minute. well, i guess i need to call the ex and nail that down NOW. gotta go. wish me luck.

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2004-10-20T17:14:33Z

lemme see. wow it's already wednesday. well rested and feeling good (finally). had a helluva weekend last week with all the killa shows...

let's see...friday went out to the aardvark in FW to see frolic and solace. damn good show - christian and the boys/girls were awesome! brock (frolic's bassist) had some *ahem* legal troubles to work through so hoek sat in for him. it was awwwwesome! nothing against brock, but when dave's on stage with frolic it's just so much more like home to me. yeah so dave was energetic as fuck and really helped frolic bring the rock. also, i just confirmed frolic for my birthday show coming up in december. gonna be a good one this year - frolic, advent, and LaME. are confirmed - more details to be announced!

saturday lauryn and i went to the ridglea metalfest - over 40 bands in 13 hours - and what an ass-whooping it was. we got there in time to enjoy the sweet sounds of the destro, LaME., dryline, (intheory), the guns of advent :), and jacknife. kudos to ted and everyone at TLA for organizing a helluva show! quick review: LaME was the standout (we love us some LaME.) and jacknife really had an amazing set. and the guns of august's new bass chick is a hot li'l number. and she's pretty damn good, too. jessie from neverdead has some competition in the "hot chick bassist" category now. oh yeah...the 1st metalfest is where lauryn and i originally "got to know each other" so metalfest II was kinda special for us. awww, see? even angry metal shows can be romantic :)

sunday we did the ronnie van zant (of lynyrd skynyrd) tribute show and BBQ and indigo. fame 15 did a great job and i really enjoyed this newer band called ONE STONE that performed. kind of a black crowes thing (and i LOATHE the black crowes) with a real southern feel and a real energetic singer with a drawl. check 'em out if ya get a chance. they did an awesome cover of skynyrd's "saturday night special" and tim at indigo got up and (tried to) sing along. it was classic! he was piss drunk and wearing his LS ballcap - he could barely stand but he was belting out the words like a champ! ya see, tim organized the whole thing so it was cool to see him having such a blast...he's a huge skynyrd fan. *note* remind me NOT to organize any poison or george michael tributes any time soon for fear of doing the same thing. wait. i already embarrass myself weekly singing poison and george michael songs :) yeah...we capped off the night with some karaoke. it was a li'l crazier than most times cuz people had been there all day for the RVZ tribute and were more drunk than usual - some drunk bitch got all crazy on stagg (the karaoke guy). lauryn and i left early cuz the vibe was weird. good times, though...good, but strange.

well, jason and i are busy as fuck with this skreamphest show. less than two weeks away. we were at all of the above shows promoting for it and we'll be at every worthwhile show doing the same until 10/30! tomorrow night DIO, baby!! now we're looking forward to booking the big NEW YEARS show at ridglea theater...will the madness never end??

looking forward to having lunch with the old eagle staff this friday at tokyo one in addison. scull and i used to go there all the time back in the day! sushi rules! saturday night i'm hosting the alter-bridge after-party/skreamphest pre-party at tom cats with dedlock, lifesize, fame 15 and gage...the just for play girls will be showing off their line of sexy, skimpy halloween costumes and we're giving away tix to freakers ball, skreamphest, and damage plan's FW show! you should attend.

what else? myspace keeps giving my PC a bug. couple of my closest (and hottest) girlfriends are having boy problems/breakups...good luck kiddos! looking forward to seeing the kids this weekend. prolly going to screams in waxahachie friday night! and i gotta take a leak reallllly bad - so i'll wrap this up now. hasta.

get yer OWN dad!

2004-10-15T20:39:01Z

well what a lovely day today... just a quick check in to say "whassup"! umm, i had lunch with the kids at school today. tres forced me to take a bite of his soybean burger. ouch. it was pretty harsh. and bekah and her friends were nice and chatty today. since i was there, we talked about all the girls' dads...who was bigger, stronger, older, younger, and even cooler. bekah's teacher recognized me as the "guy from the eagle" and joked that bekah will get better grades now :) oh and i played with tres outside for recess. i always end up having to play with all the other kids too. we spent the entire period on the swings. so i got push tres the whole time...also alternating push time with other kids on the adjacent swings. i really enjoy pushing the other kids too, but sometimes i just wanna push my li'l man and enjoy those few minutes without the others...the kids are real cool but today there was this really annoying blonde girl. she was chubby and loud like a young golden-haired version of roseanne barr. she kept yellin "push me now, push me now, push me now, push me now" like a zillion times over and over. i mean i was like "damn, girl - breathe"! it was such a cock-block. i mean i'm there enjoying some time with my son and she was just annoying the piss outta me... eventually Tres got annoyed too and yelled over to her "get your own dad!" HAHAHAHA it was classic! GET YOUR OWN DAD! the girl just kinda quieted down and i eventually went to push her... i know this sounds mean but she was THAT annoying. anyway, had a great time with the kids :)

spoke to lauryn earlier and she told me that she saw an ice cream man get outta his ice cream truck and use a port-a-potty. we argued whether or not ice cream trucks have sinks so he could wash his hands afterwords. cuz we KNOW port-a-potties don't. ewwww...

TONIGHT EDGEWATER AT THE NEW GALAXY CLUB!! BE THERE!!